Happy Birthday to ME~~!!!

Happy Birthday to Me, Happy Birthday to ME!!!
Wow.. I"M 50 Years old today!!! Does that mean I"m on the down hill side of life... NOPE... My daddy used to say when you turn 50 life begins again...
My Happy Thought for today is..
When I worked at the bank I turned 35.. I thought it was the end of the world, I cried all day. I dressed in a black shirt and pink rockies to go to work.. They made me a black cake with pink roses on it.. They bought my lunch, at lunch I was so upset I could hardly eat.. A man I worked with was about 60 or so.. He said down beside me and said " What are you so upset about.. I mean look at it.. YOU have two choices: You can either turn 35 or push up daisies... I don't know about you but I"m in no hurry to push up daisies" It was about three or so weeks later right before Christmas I think he died of a heart attack.!! I never looked at birthdays quite the same... Now I look at them like I"m not getting older.. I"m just getting better and wiser...
Happy Thought... At least I am here to celebrate my 50th birthday. I have my family and they all love me.. I"m a lucky woman today!!!
I used to sit with a little precious lady that had Alzheimer.. One of her favorite sayings was... "Don't ya wish you had one"!! Well see.. "Don't ya wish today was your Birthday!"
Enjoy your day... whatever your doing!!

Thanksgiving EVE!!

Thanksgiving Eve !!
Today is the day we need to sit down and write out a list of all the things we have to be thankful for.!! I promise you if we are truthful the list will be never ending!!! God is so good to us. We tend to take it for granted...
I KNOW that I do... I grip about the little things that go wrong .. or about what I want to be different, and yet I tend to over look the daily blessing he gives me..
I just want to say thanks.. to everyone out there.. Thanks for your prayers, encouragement, and friendship.!!
Enjoy your holiday................ Please don't forget to thank the man up stairs, He gave us good health, a loving family, and Blessing too many to count...
BTW Crystal is through her chemo and waiting now to see if she has to have radiation. Her tumor has no active cancer cells at this time!!! Praise the Lord!!!

Picture TIME!!

I like posting pictures of my family... Here are a few... Hope you enjoy them!

Updating my world.!!

Monday, November 07, 2005

The weekend is over... Where did it go.. Jason came home.. I hardly saw him..he went to see his honey and other friends... I miss him racing!! .... I buried myself on this stupid computer and did dummy math and Microsoft Computer Applications..Why do I always put everything off until the last minute........ Gee.. You would think I would learn.. How old am I now...(don't you DARE say!!)

I talked to Kali some today... we usually try to talk almost every day or at least every couple of days. we have such grown up conversations... She always starts it with "What are you doing?" and every time we run out of something to talk about she says it again.."So what are you doing Mammy?". she is excited that Jason might get his own place.... because when Hank had his at Norman.. I would go there pick her up and we would spend the night at Hank's.. she is already planning on what toys she wants at Jason's house..lol............. God I love her sooo much.. I can't wait for Braden to get bigger.. Actually shhhhhh ( I would enjoy all my boys having little ones as long as I got to baby sit!) but that can wait a while.. Priorities first OK??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(School and jobs.... money don't ya just hate it..!!)

Hank sounds so good lately.. I think he has finally gotten into a youth group like I have always wanted him to be a part of.. All my life I have said I wanted my boys to belong to a youth group like I had growing up at dear old Lake Creek Baptist church.. It was awesome.... I"m so happy for him!!!

Brad and Henry are planning on fishing next weekend...they have a tournament at Eufaula...( That is what they do best..-- fish and fish together...) It's their "he breaths in soo the other he can breath out thing"... They are soo much alike... Plus they are both great dads.!!!! They must have watched my dad raise me huh???

My dad was a lot of things...... but he was an awesome daddy... He had a way of making each of us feel so special like we were his favorite above anyone.and there were six of us.... Today my sister and I went out to the cemetery to put out his winter flowers... she had big tears in her eyes talking about her daughter moving to Hawaii.... then she said.. I miss Daddy soooo much..some days I feel I can't breath without him... how can I be with out Heather..??? It's hard to be a parent........... almost as hard as being the child..!! I was so lucky to have two wonderful ones.... I am amased at my mom every day... There is nobody on the face of this earth like her... She and Daddy did without a lot to give to us but they had hearts bigger than North America!!!! If I could be one tenth the parent they were I would be soo happy!!! Being a parent is a big responsibility... God trusts us with it... Please don't let me flunk!!!

My hours started over for the year at work... So I get to see all the foster kids this month.. I am organizing the Angel Tree and will be responsible for getting their Christmas gifts..(if anyone wants to sponsor a child this Christmas or even just buy one gift... Let me know..) I will be making sure every one has something. I love this part of my job.. I love seeing the kids.... but sometimes it tears my heart out.............. Someone flunked .... or they wouldn't be in the system................... God help me to make a difference in at least one of their lives this month........... let them see the light at the end of the tunnel.... let them hope for and look to a brighter future!!!!!

God Bless the Little Children of the World!!! (isn't there a song like that..??)



Saturday, November 05, 2005

Well Crystal is home from her last inpatient chemo treatment. I haven't seen her but I have talked to Vick.. she is doing good but tried... she went to school on Friday and one of her friends came to spend the night with her... I think that is good for her. She feels so alone at times..but maybe things are going to get better now.. I hope and Pray when she redoes the test the cancer is totally all gone!!!!

Cathy got Debbie at the hospital in Iowa and is on her way to Texas with her... Cathy has her hands full.. I hope she gets help for Debbie in Texas... Debbie is a very special person but she just has a sickness called bipolar and she can't help that..............

Today is Saturday.. anyone want to come over and help me clean?? Come on.. we can do like I used to do my boys.. Let's draw straws to see who does what and who cleans which rooms.. they would always start to grip when they saw me getting 3 toothpicks and making them different sizes so they had to "draw a straw"... This meant the fight was on.... NObody ever liked the job they got or the room they got.. regardless which one it was...

Jason is home for the weekend...He went out last night.. I"m not sure what time he got home... or where he went or what he did...but I don't worry about Jason.. Should I?? LOL.... He is thinking hard about what to do next semester.. I think he has about decided to stay at OU if he can move off campus... He went apartment hunting yesterday... Man oh man......... I"M not ready for this.. MY BABY have a place of his own.!!!!!!!!! Where did my little blonde cotton top go.. the one that used to suck his thumb and hang on to me until I couldn't get a thing done when I would get home from work... he would even hang on my leg when I cooked... but I have to be honest.. he was really sick alot when he was little and I babied him... I miss my baby... but I'm proud of my young MAN!! **HUGS** I can't wait until he graduates college gets a job and gets married... I am ready to have another granddaughter but I don't think everyone knows if he has a little girl she has to be named JACEY.... that has been my nickname for Jason most of his life.. so get ready any girls reading this and get used to the idea... if you marry my son.. your daughter's name has to be Jacey!!! LOL...

I'm not sure if Hank will ever get married... but I honestly think the best thing that could happen to Hank is for him to get a girl in his life.. someone to share his deep thoughts and dreams with.. he seems so restless at times.. and troubled from within.. a good Christian lady might be just what the Lord ordered.!!!

I haven't talked to Kali hardly at all this week.. I have been so busy.. I talked to Brad a bit yesterday.. Kaci's shoulder is some better.. she is busy trying to close on a couple of houses .. so we haven't really stayed in touch... Braden isn't interested in walking yet.. but then he doesn't have to rush.... I miss my babies.. maybe if I had more I wouldn't miss them so much..YEAH RIGHT>>> it's me we are talking about.. I have 3 boys and I miss everyone one of them.. if I had more grandchildren I would just have more to miss... My daddy used to say all the time.. Babe I wish I had a hundred like you.. I thought he was just teasing.. THE Man was serious.. I KNOW THAT NOW!!!

Have a good weekend!!!

OOops...!!

Ooops... I forgot another niece.... she is really special to me also.. But thank goodness she is doing great... In fact.. she goes to college with me.. helps to teach me the ropes... I don't worry about her much.. she has her head on straight and is a great young lady.!!! I love her just as I do the other ones... she just has her own auto pilot and her mom is always there to lean on.. she doesn't need me like the others do... But she is just as special!!!

Choices..!!

OK.. what happened to a week full of Happy Hearts and Pleasant Thoughts!! Some one stole it from me..!! HURRY BRING IT BACK!!!!

Where do I start.. or should I share what is going through my head.?. Hank says he doesn't read my sight because it is always so depressing... Wow... have you read his?? It's always so deep....!!! Could it be we are alike in some ways?? Imagine that?? He gets us to thinking huh?? Good for you child!!!!!!

I told you before I have never had a daughter until Brad married Kaci.. I love her with all my heart...but still she has a mom I don't want to take her place so even though we are close and share somethings it's not the same as her being my daughter. That comes with sharing things all along I think. I do have 3 nieces that I'm very close to... All three are going through their own kind of hell right now... My heart is very heavy this week for all of them... Pray that God doesn't give them more than they can handle...Each problem is very different.. Each one handles things differently but yet in their own world each is going through sooooo much right now..

One is about to move to Hawaii... her mom isn't so healthy and she worries about moving off and leaving her. Her hubby isn't the father of her oldest child. She was married before and had this little girl... So Laken's dad has decided he doesn't want his daughter in Hawaii even though she has never lived with him except her weekends and summer vacations. He is going to court to try to get custody of Laken.. This is causing problems for my niece.. She feels so torn from the man she loves who has no choice because of the military.. His orders say Hawaii and Hawaii it will be. (hawaii should be a happy place we long to go to -- not a burden) But how can a mother go off and leave her family (her mom and possibly her daughter).. The Bible says forsaking all others cleave thee only to him...!! They argue about this some..... He has no choice... she is hurting inside because of her choices ...... Prayer is all that can help!!!

Another niece and I go from talking all the time... To years without a word.. it's weird I know but then her situation is really weird. Her mom is my husband's sister... The mom is bipolar.she is a very special lady also but this illness grips her at times and won't let go.. I feel my niece has inherited some of this behavior. Her mom has been living with her because she had no other place to go.. She can't keep a job because of here illness (yes bipolar is an illness, a very sad one) But this week her mom had a really bad spell... She hit bottom, they had to take her to a mental hospital. This killed Christy.. she is the one that had to sign her mom in... She called me crying and very upset....She had no choice.. (here is that word again choices) yet she feels she just disowned her own mother.... I tried to encourage her. Tell her if her mom isn't on medication she has to have help... It's odd.. Christy and I haven't talked in about 6 months because of her mom and yet when the going got rough who did she call... Me.. her second Mom..(Christy and her sister lived with me for 17 months when they were little because of her mom's illness) . I was glad to hear from her..... I miss her and I know this is hard for her... They go to a mental health hearing on Friday morning at 8 AM.. Pray for Christy and her mom and everyone involved.. Her mom my never in her present state of mind forgive her daughter to doing this.... But what else could she have done???????????? Pray.!!!!!!

The other niece I'm so close to you hear me talk about all the time... All the other problems seem so petty compared to what Crystal is going through... She went for her last round of chemo until they do more testing at least... I talked to Vickie last night.. They are in the room with a little girl Emily. Emily is from the same town we live in. Emily has been crying the whole time they have been there.. she too has cancer... her outlook is not so good.... Without a miracle Emily might not make it... This has Crissy soo upset... for many reasons... She can't rest for the little 4 yr old crying.. This has her thinking non stop... will hers not respond as Emily's hasn't... Crystal lays there wondering about so many things and yet others in life worry about what to wear tomorrow or where they will live... Who is talking to whom and who is mad at who....Petty things compared to cancer and facing life and death..... Crystal is strong.. right now everything looks good... She is responding to treatment... The tumor is shrinking... yet the questions are still there... The Choices(that word again) she makes will affect her life forever... not just tomorrow...

I had a friend tell me once.. will it matter tomorrow.. will it matter next week.. will it matter in five years..... will they talk about it after your dead and gone.. if so it matters if not.... Give it to God let him worry about it..!!!!!! OMG........... can we do that with all our troubles .... Don't we all wish it was that easy......

Pray for my nieces... each is special to me.. each is going through so much and there is nothing I can do to help any of them but Pray!!