The Holidays

I don't really know what the problem is lately.. I feel so down and depressed most of the time.. maybe it's school and the pressures there, maybe it's my job and having to make sure that so many foster children have a Christmas, maybe it's helping my kids have Christmas.. or maybe it's money.. the boys are both out of money.. it seems everyweek it takes all we make just for expenses and our bills are piling up.. Hank's grant money didn't last like it should have and we have to pay his bills and ours also.. Where does it all end.. the pressure is killing us...
But then on the other hand.. we are so lucky.. Crystal is going through radiation now.. she is doing so good.. at least we have that blessing.. why should I even grip about anything else.. what right do I have to be depressed when there are so many that have so little...
Yet still I feel so down like I have no reason to smile.. the holidays should be a good time .. when actually statistic show it's one of the most stressful times.. there are more deaths and break ups over this period...
Hubby hates Christmas.. his mom died when he was about 14.. Christmas was her favorite time.. after she died his dad turned to the bottle to get through the day... so they had no Christmas except what neighbors or churches brought them... He is really stressed over the holidays... his family even never gets together or has dinner like most families because it does stress all of them so much................
I sure wish I had a rich uncle that would get out of the poor house as my dad used to say... when he would worry about money he would say.. oh well my rich uncle will get out of the poor house soon and I won't have to worry about it........... I really thought he meant it... LOL....
I miss my Daddy!!!!!! *sigh*